I can't handle being alone. How can I fix this problem i have within myself?
I hate my own company. Don't get me wrong, I love me, but i hate being by myself. Activities and interests that i start doing with someone else fade away when that person leaves, they no loner hold any interest for me. I get extremely antsy when alone, I hate being left to my own thoughts and vices. I try to fill as much as my day possible with friend dates/people interactions in order to eliminate as much alone time as i can. Going to sleep at night is the worst.
My boyfriend of 5 years is threatening a break up. He says I smother him. I don't see how this can be as i haven't changed in the five years we've been together. I do ask for a lot of his attention and he tells me no a lot, which is when i fill that time up with friends. Out of nowhere he told me he can't handle it anymore and i need to change my ways, and fast.
So my question is, how can i teach myself to like my own company? What do you do in your free time that doesn't require anyone else to be there with you? I work two jobs and go to college full time so i don't have a ton of free time, but even that little bit would drive me insane if i had to spend it all alone.