Why I'm ___________.
Ricky Gervais sent his out his holiday message earlier this week. It was called Why I'm An Atheist. (Yes, we're aware of the obvious contradiction here.) Now your turn:
Team SP
Everywheresville, Earth
More Writing Activities
reply
Why I'm stuck.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm stuck.
I've been doing the same mundane things that everyday life offers, going round and round in circles. I haven't even tried to make a change because I lack the interest and energy. I'm becoming less curious about people because so far majority of the people I meet tend to disappear at some point and adjusting to that every time is a major energy consumer. I'm unwilling to try out anything new and different because I haven't done anything new or different in a long time and I've lost that confidence that I used to have in abundance.
reply
Why i'm on this website.
- Feature
- Like
Why i'm on this website.
my best friend has a crush on this boy.... let's call him darren. that's not some clever not so subtle way of disguising the fact that his name is aaron, i just like the name darren so let's use that. this boy darren is my friend. he posted the link to this website on my wall so i figured i should probably check in out and show it to my best friend to give her something to talk about with darren the next time she sees him.
reply
Why I'm afraid to die.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm afraid to die.
I have no legacy to live by. In the grand scheme of things, I legacy is meaningless but I want to know that I impacted the world in a positive manner; that I progressed mankind's knowledge and imagination. I need to know that my ideas were heard and that I didn't just waste my time. I love my girlfriend, friends, and family but for some reason, that does not validate my desire to leave my mark on a larger part of this world in the form of a book, invention, or service.
reply
Why I'm ready to be free.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm ready to be free.
Here I sit, at a shambled mess of wood pieced together, what is that called, a coffin, no wait a desk! Ten long hours pass with no relief or pauses. Sick of the mundane, daily pointless circle of existence I have sandwiched myself in. This was supposed to be my escape, my way to express myself, a new career. I imagine leaving, quitting and following my true passions. The instant feeling of freedom encompasses me...but wait, what will I do to pay my bills? How will I support myself? Do I care? Is it really that important to be successful financially? What if the only success I seek in life is to find peace and happiness for myself and others? Do I put those I love in a financial strain so I can be free? Do I continue to subject them to my shifting moods because I am so confined? Conscience why do I have thee? Why must you interfere and instill fear in my deepest of dreams? Oh conscience I am ready to be free, free to express and enjoy every moment of my life. I let you go, to come as you please, but don't think your residence will be permanent, for you will be sharing a room with my dreams.
reply
Why I'm almost positive that no one in my life gives a crap about what I say or feel.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm almost positive that no one in my life gives a crap about what I say or feel.
Because they don't.
reply
Why I'm not confident.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm not confident.
In my past, I have had some pretty bad experiences with myself image, who I am, and what I wanted to do. My "friends" always laughed or made fun of it all, and I carry that with me to this day. Nothing can break down these walls they have aided to construct, so it seems. Not my real friends telling me I'm worth it, not the same friends telling me that I CAN do it and that it WILL work out. I'm not confident in myself and I never will be.
reply
Why I'm so paranoid.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm so paranoid.
I have these perpetual thoughts that you'll go off and find someone prettier, smarter, & funnier. That you'll find someone better in general. They're not as constant because I'm more content with myself, and you've reassured me that you see us in a relationship; but they're still there.
reply
Why I'm still awake.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm still awake.
If I try to sleep, my mind will wander. I'm going to be up until I'm tired enough that when I do lay down, I'll fall asleep fast without thinking, worrying, or reminiscing.
reply
Why I'm overly happy?
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm overly happy?
Because if I let that smile just a little everyone around me won't have faith in my anymore.
reply
I'm scared.
- Feature
- Like
I'm scared.
I havent gotten my period yet and im scared im pregnant.
I'm not ready
reply
Why I'm Insecure.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Insecure.
It's hard to put yourself out there.
At the end of the day, you're always alone.
Thinking about the future, the world, life. And how frightening it really is. And how none of this might not matter.
But I do hope I develop some confidence to see that it does.
reply
Why I'm contempt
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm contempt
I have a wonderful family, an awesome boyfriend, two spectacularily sassy girlfriends, and a Terry's Chocolate Orange. Life is gooooood.
reply
Why I'm okay with being scared.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm okay with being scared.
At the beginning of the year I was blindly in love with a handsome, funny, attractive man, whom I had also married in April of the year before. By June we were divorced, and I hated him more than words could express. He abused me psychologically and verbally, and rather than fight back I simply crumpled. I hated him for making me weak, and I hated myself for allowing it. I also felt like a failure for not being able to save us. I felt like I wasn't good enough.
Now I'm dating my best friend and everything is perfect again, haha. Funny how that works. He loves me in ways I never imagined and says/does everything I wanted my ex-husband to do. There are some things that need improving but I got the marriage bug out of my skin so I'm okay with taking it slow. So far it's working quite well. At the beginning I had some fear issues, such as wondering when he would turn against me as well. I had to accept that he is a different person, and I don't need to be afraid of the past.
I am still afraid of the future, because it is so very unknown. I may break up with my boyfriend, or he may be "the one." I may lose my job due to a back injury, or it might be fine. I may not be able to pay rent, or maybe my new roommates will be worse than the last. But right now is fine, and right now is good, and no matter what happens I'm just going to deal with it. Life doesn't wait, and all that crap. I'm going to keep learning until I'm dead.
reply
why im sad and tired of things
- Feature
- Like
why im sad and tired of things
beacuse im tired of the stupid things people say...im tired of being alone throughout this...im tired of having the only one that can make things happen just turn the other cheek...im tired of not having the things i most want
reply
Why I'm Lonely
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Lonely
A while ago, my boyfriend used to be clingy, so much so that I began taking the path of least resistance and not bothering to make new friends, or maintain my current ones very much. He's since become more secure, and I love him to death, but it's like I've forgotten how to make friends. My current two or three are S****y, honestly, if I can even call them friends. I'm not close to them at all. We'll hang out once in a while, but we're not really true friends. And when I try to make new friends at school, there's no one I really like, or if there is I don't know what to do to make them my friend. Sad, I know. That's why I'm so damn excited to leave for college next year, where everyone else will be looking for new friends too. I hope I'll be able to make friends there.
This post is particularly depressing because my boyfriend's out of town visiting his dad, and I miss him so much. Usually I'm not this pathetic.
reply
Why I'm overwhelmed...
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm overwhelmed...
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude for the amazing life that I have been given. What an experience I have had. I'm completely overwhelmed when I think of the adventure that we face everyday. These days life seems so exciting even when going about the day to day...I'm overwhelmed because after 37 years of reading about what true love is supposed to be, I FINALLY experienced it and it is beautiful and freeing. There's something about that experience that makes me feel like anything is possible. Thinking anything is possible is overwhelming. The negativity in this world scares me but it is the only thing I don't let overwhelm me. The day that it does, I believe I am done for. So, I keep allowing myself to be overwhelmed by wonderment, excitement and love...It's the only way I know how to fight the good fight.
reply
Why I'm tired... eternally.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm tired... eternally.
Teaching. in. the. bad. part. of. town.
But having an amazing time doing what I never expected. Loving children and families I might have never known. Seeing children gain self-worth when they learn they can learn and draw and paint and create a life that THEY want. Knowing they might not remember me. Never receiving gifts, but a thousand thank yous and hugs that make me sleep well, even if I don't sleep long.
reply
Why I'm egocentric.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm egocentric.
I'm always so worried about how I look, always wondering about what people think of me. Why is it so important for me to be appreciated, to be a part of a community.
reply
Why I’m not married.
- Feature
- Like
Why I’m not married.
I am fortunate. The person I am in love with, will spend the rest of my life with regardless of politics, happens to be a member of the opposite sex.
I fought two tours in support of a corrupt administration, defiling the dignity and rights of a large group of people. The only reprieve I can grant my conscience is that I thought I was accomplishing a goal that, in fact, didn’t actually exist.
I fought alongside men and women who weren’t as fortunate as I am with respect the genital situation of their respective lovers.
When I returned from what I had since learned to be a fraudulent war, I returned to a state that had been hijacked by religious bigots.
My partner and I don’t have it in us to take advantage of rights that we only have because we are fortunate.
Fortune should not determine rights.
Therefore, we wear rings, we call each other husband and wife, but we will not be married.
reply
Why I'm scared.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm scared.
Part of the beauty and wonder of this world is the unknown. But that unknown brings out this crippling fear within me. Will I live to see another day? What about my loved ones; What will become of them? Is what I'm doing now; good enough for later? Will I ever be happy? My life is going downhill in a nice, chaotic spiral...and I'm scared it will never stop.
I fear those beady-eyed, aquatic dwelling creatures that swim all around. I fear those reflective, yet open glass panes in every room of my house. I fear the green plants which envelop my entire yard with their short blades.
But most of all, yes, more than anything, I fear myself...who am i?
reply
Why I'm overseas.....
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm overseas.....
I'm gathering data
I'm comfortably settling in Europe
The United States may offer great experiences in entertainment, shopping and natural wonder; however, it is never to old to do the European experience.
Sadly, I could not get the timely assitance of health care in the United States. In Europe, it is basically free.
I love the accents over here
I am coming back to my roots
I have great fun as a bilingual business person here, complete my educaiton, and maybe never go back to the U.S.
Thank you for this life change.
reply
why I'm reclusive:
- Feature
- Like
why I'm reclusive:
the past, yes, perhaps. i have a home in my chest! it's warm and I don't need to produce any kind of product, whether it's of the mind, or from my hands, or my soul. because i'm not where I need to be, and my time limit here is starting to become a sentence.
gotta tap, gotta tap into some things, gotta learn how to do that.
reply
Why I'm... FRIENDLESS yet sweet, great sense of humor, and attractive:
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm... FRIENDLESS yet sweet, great sense of humor, and attractive:
my friends from high school got into heavy drugs/alcohol/dropping out and making babies before they could drive so i removed myself from each of them. i now attend community college in the meantime, and haven't made friends because i have yet to meet someone in class who is not ghetto. myspace/social networking to make new friends is kind of dead so it's difficult to meet people with the same interests. i'm just shy and feel like i've forgotten how to make friends since it's been a few years since i had one. i feel like my only solution is to move to a new city and start fresh.
reply
Why I'm Hopeful.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Hopeful.
I am learning about myself more each day and becoming more myself each day. I am hopeful that each new year will help form something new in me. I can't wait to watch myself grow.
reply
Why I believe in something.....
- Feature
- Like
Why I believe in something.....
Because plants react to imminet danger. Because I can feel the approach of danger before I can see it, I feel when someone is watching me. I believe there is something because there are hundreds of religions with different gods and dieties, yet buried deep underneath the politics and propogand the same morality and humanity thrives. Because out of everything in the known universe, all the planets, the stars, the galaxies that dont have any life, We do. And we have so much of it. From the leaves on trees to blades of grass to the billions of bugs and critters that crawl beneath our feet. Because even science cannot recreate the spark of life, cannot define what it is that makes a being alive versus not. Because somewhere between the molecules and atoms we live, we breath and we exist. Rocks dont, dirt isnt alive but we are. How can a flower, with no intelligence, no eyes, mimic the apperace of a bee, in order to trick it into polination? Because there is a sway, a timing that is divine, why two people in the same avalanche have such different outcomes even though they both acted in the exact same way. Call it fate, call it God, I call it divinity. A universal belonging to one another, we are all connected, we share atoms that were once bonded together to form a star that died and went on to live with in us. Matter cannot be created or destroyed only altered, everything that has ever existed still does with all of us and around us.
I believe in something because mathmatically there isnt enough time for humans to have evolved from a single organism into where we are today. Let alone how many species we have. So I believe in something.
reply
Why I'm a Cynic.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a Cynic.
Because when life gets you down, the least you can do is get some amusement out of it.
I don't hide behind my sarcasm, I embrace it.
reply
why I am 27 and still live with my Grandmother.
- Feature
- Like
why I am 27 and still live with my Grandmother.
it could be because i don't do my best when i'm left alone. i make terrible choices because i just don't care. my nana reminds me that someone cares about me, and doesn't want me to ruin myself (and it's strange because she doesn't say any of this verbally, i just know she cares). i live with her because she is falling into poor health, and will soon need someone to look after her, and i will be that person because i know her schedule and routine. i live with my nana because i feel like in this culture we tend to forget or push aside the older members of our families and society. i guess, easily put, i live with my grandmother because i love her. even though sometimes we want to kill each other, we're family.
reply
Why I'm Not at peace...
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Not at peace...
If you know the answer, will you please tell me? I am emotionally, spiritually and physically exhausted from trying to find some peace in my life and in myself.
reply
Why I am Confused.
- Feature
- Like
Why I am Confused.
I love you But I hate you.
I am Ugly But Beautiful.
I am Intelligent But Foolish.
I am a walking oxymoron, or I should just say lost...
reply
Why I'm a 2010 screw-up
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a 2010 screw-up
1) car accident (no collision insurance) in February
2) was in a cast for the first time in my life because I dislocate and fractured my elbow (and during this duration I had my graduation and my only syblings wedding--I was a bridesmaid, my dad had to cut my food for me..I'm 18) in May
3) got an underage (within my first month as a freshman at college) in September
4) lost a $600 phone (first time I ever lost a phone, and I've had three upgrades) (also no insurance) in November
5) in a single day I wrote three articles for my newspaper because I wanted to stand out--two went to web and not print, and the other wasn't published anywhere because they felt I seemed biased by liking the band I was covering..in November
6) Did the worst academically in my life (2.5 [A-, B+, C, D] and I've never received below a 3.0 so first semester kicked my a*s essentially)
7) I owe my dad $443.50 for the underage fine + $400 for a new phone and my boyfriend $400 for helping me out so I didn't have to ask my dad for money.
[[p.s.-best year for my love life, and fun fact about me: my favorite show is The Office and I got to interview Rainn Wilson for the Soul Pancake book]]
Why I'm going to rock 2011
1) Because I've made mistakes because I take risks, I try to do everything, and sh*t happens, but if you learn from your mistakes then, although my gpa doesn't show it, I've had the most educational semester of my life.
2) I'm determined
3) I know better
4) I know the direction to take
5) I'm moving on from the past...
reply
Why I'm a 2010 screw-up
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a 2010 screw-up
1) car accident (no collision insurance) in February
2) was in a cast for the first time in my life because I dislocate and fractured my elbow (and during this duration I had my graduation and my only syblings wedding--I was a bridesmaid, my dad had to cut my food for me..I'm 18) in May
3) got an underage (within my first month as a freshman at college) in September
4) lost a $600 phone (first time I ever lost a phone, and I've had three upgrades) (also no insurance) in November
5) in a single day I wrote three articles for my newspaper because I wanted to stand out--two went to web and not print, and the other wasn't published anywhere because they felt I seemed biased by liking the band I was covering..in November
6) Did the worst academically in my life (2.5 [A-, B+, C, D] and I've never received below a 3.0 so first semester kicked my a*s essentially)
7) I owe my dad $443.50 for the underage fine + $400 for a new phone and my boyfriend $400 for helping me out so I didn't have to ask my dad for money.
[[p.s.-best year for my love life, and fun fact about me: my favorite show is The Office and I got to interview Rainn Wilson for the Soul Pancake book]]
Why I'm going to rock 2011
1) Because I've made mistakes because I take risks, I try to do everything, and sh*t happens, but if you learn from your mistakes then, although my gpa doesn't show it, I've had the most educational semester of my life.
2) I'm determined
3) I know better
4) I know the direction to take
5) I'm moving on from the past...
reply
Why I'm hungry...
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm hungry...
even though I've eaten enough to feed a small country, but I'm watching Food Network and it's reinforcing this vicious cycle. :P
reply
Why I'm Me
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Me
1. People need to laugh and I've got the goods to make it happen.
2. People need love and I've got the heart big enough to hold on to all of it.
3. People need somewhere to cry and I've got just the shoulder for the job.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm happy to live in this century. Because it's great to know that I can meet anyone from anywhere without the expense of traveling. And if I do want to travel, I'm privy to a few sources in receiving good airfare instead of paying for a full ticket.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm stuck on material object acquisition. I think it goes back to a poverty stricken upbringing and the fear that I won't have what I need, what others have or what I want. I need to change my ways, but it's hard. It has however brought me to the brink of poverty myself (again).
reply
Why I'm lazy,
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm lazy,
True I don't sit on the couch all day or play games on the computer. This is just about all I do on the computer. This and skim Ebay. I am the kind of lazy that likes complacency, staying put, not moving forward. I will be 25 in April and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I stopped trying to figure it out. I am perfectly happy with the near nothing I have. My stupid little job, my basically stupid boyfriend and living out of the apartment in the attic of my moms house. I don't expect much of anything including myself and I'm happy that way. That's why I'm lazy.
reply
Why I'm Fickle...
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Fickle...
Perhaps I should, being 33 years old, refrain from blaming other people but, why not one more stab from my lacking accountability.
I'm fickle because my Great Grandparents left Canada. Yep, they left that stable, innocent, pedestrian country. Then they proceed to pawn off my grandfather and his siblings to family members scattered about the heart of depression era Appalachia. Great Idea. Was Canada that bad? The outcome: a grandfather who never knew his mother country nor where he came from; confusion highway, with exits of doubt, flap in the wind like maple leaves in the fall.
reply
Why I'm a goofball.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a goofball.
Whenever life kicks me in the groin I hide my pain behind a shuck and jive dance routine to try to make others laugh.
I always smile the most when I'm the saddest.
My tears only fall when I'm completely isolated.
Sometimes the clowns really are the most desolate souls.
reply
Why I am Losha:
- Feature
- Like
Why I am Losha:
For so many years...
I hid my mind, hid my body.
I hid in all the dark corners where no one could find me.
But one day in the dark, a woman did find.
Protective circle gone, she stood, shook me free.
"Layla," she said, "You are now Losha, let us be."
The world lost focus and I finally found myself:
A thief swathed in black, flitting through the night,
So strong, so lithe, feasting on the world through my flight.
As hours become years, forever into now:
A fanged and spiked Hunter, two great axes to wield,
A skull-bearing crossbow and pets as my shield.
As years become memories, my adventures play on:
I travel across tundras and revel through waters,
I swim, dive and leap through uncharted knowledge.
I sing with no voice, I dance with no grace.
A conundrum of sorts, forever two-faced.
“Let it be known,” she said on that first fateful night.
“Only when you let go, can you finally be free.”
Mind made to flesh, in the smiling mirror I see.
Layla is Losha, forever and always we’ll be.
reply
Why I'm still here:
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm still here:
I have a wonderful husband, I have a beautiful son and I have a tiny baby in my belly.
Life is beautiful.
reply
why I'm here
- Feature
- Like
why I'm here
l am in love
l settle
l am full of ideas
my heart is breaking
I can't let go
i am broken
i want to be happy
I am happy
I miss people I have loved
I am capable of more
I am desperate
I love unconditionally and easily and completely
I have two best friends
I have survived my own depression
I have survived grief
I have survived grief over death and over an ending
I have a cat that helped me survive
reply
Why I'm the way I am.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm the way I am.
-I've fallen and I've chosen to get get back up time and time again.
-I've loved unconditionally-and continue to do so, no matter the hurt of my past experiences.
-I will force myself outside of my comfort zone in order to grow.
-I've accepted that, yes, I am Human.
-I live by these two mantras:
"Cowards die many times over again; the valiant never taste of death but once" ~William Shakespeare
"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."~ Mahatma Gandhi
reply
Why I am at peace.
- Feature
- Like
Why I am at peace.
I realize that I am infinitely greater and more powerful than my thoughts, feelings, emotions, and actions. I realize that I am not my past, and that my future holds infinite possibility. I realize that I AM the present moment, and that the present is always perfect. Basically, 'ditto' to what Mellowyellow said...
reply
Why I am 'here',
- Feature
- Like
Why I am 'here',
I am hear to bring together a group of people with different strengths, break down barriers between them, unlock their potential, and motivate them to be creative. I am here to change the world.
I hope.
reply
Why I'm no longer weak.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm no longer weak.
I am no longer weak because through struggles I have found my voice. I have found my passions, my needs, and my wants and realized. . . being nice, and being decent does NOT mean putting yourself down or putting yourself last always. . . . it means standing up for yourself and others, sharing what you can what you have, and staying true to what is right and what is good!
I am no longer weak because I have dropped all the people in my life who wanted me to stay that way!
reply
Why I'm safe.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm safe.
Everything is a moment, some moments are longer than others, but everything is a moment, and all moments end, no matter how long or short they are, and become new moments that also end. Everything I've ever gone through in any given moment eventually becomes something that happened, and then I have moved on to a new moment that brings a new experience, a new thought, a new emotion. Nothing is forever, not the good or the bad. My life has been full of cycles, like the moon. And like the moon, the cycle affects the tides of my emotions, and I am always surging, withdrawing, crashing, enormous, almost non-existent, and sometimes I'm right sized. But in my pain, the knowledge that I will have a new moment eventually brings me peace. And in my joy, that same knowledge grants me the grace to love even greater the moment I'm in. Life will always pull the rug out from under me, leaving me breathless in both good and bad ways, but it will always bring me another moment, and that makes me feel safe because it lets me know that I will always be okay. No matter what life does, no matter what I fear, no matter my joy, I will always be okay. And so will you...
reply
Why I am lucky.
- Feature
- Like
Why I am lucky.
I have a wonderful husband, family, friends, coworkers and job. I have enough to eat, a roof over my head and can afford to have some fun. Despite some recent health issues, I am fit, active and healthy. My cancer scare was just that, a scare, with no actual cancer. I am very lucky to have my life and could not imagine a better Christmas present than that. Happy new year to you all!
reply
Why I'm afraid.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm afraid.
I am afraid because I don't know what the future holds. I'm going to an expensive college and I'm going to be far in debt when I graduate and I honestly don't know how or if I will be able to pay the expenses. I am solely going on intuition. On a hope. A dream of reaching that desired destination.
reply
Why I'm lost.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm lost.
I'm lost because I don't know what to do, or what to think. My mind forces me to think only of the thing that makes my life the way it is: him. I love him, more than goddamn anything, but us being together screws up everything. My best friend hates him, and almost no one thinks we should be together. So, as Charles Dickenson put it, it IS the best of times, it is the worst of times. I'm lost, because I had to stop and think, then remind myself to stop thinking. Then I just ran with it, now I'm lost. Make sense? i didn't think so. Hell, it's happening to me and I don't get it.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm letting go of myself lately is because I can't stand to see my best friend do this to herself. I can't stand the longing for something I'll never have. I'm tired of shouting into the silence only to receive silence back.
reply
Why I'm Jigglypuff.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Jigglypuff.
My favorite pokemon is Jigglypuff. Why? "She's a pretty much useless pokemon" my guy friends say. Whatever. I'm a lover not a fighter. I was never even that into pokemon to begin with; I just saw her on a card one day chilling underneath a tree with those little music notes floating above her head, and I said to myself, that's my kind of pokemon.
reply
Why I'm having boy troubles?
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm having boy troubles?
Its always the same old story, I need a new start and need to change my taste in guys.
reply
Why I'm In Love :
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm In Love :
I'm in love , because after seeing him for the first time and feeling like a fool for the inappropriate gesture I made,
then 'seeing " him in his beauty for the first time in the elevator,
falling asleep in his arms while lying and listening to the sound of him breathing,
dancing and being silly, when after all of this time has passed and we shared little emails here and there, when the space between us is enough to make anyone laugh , he sent me a message saying 'i love you".... We are not in the same land nor do we ask each other about our personal lives. I am happily single and i love seeing the beauty in myself as a single free woman , I like turning down dates and sharing my ideas as a writer instead, being intimate with my thoughts to people as they read them on the page.. But in this unexpected note, he publicly shared his love for me .. I'm in love because I am single. And I do not know why. Why I am the way I am. Or why he and I love each other.
I'm in love because I love myself, and even though being alone has been my cup of tea , I like the sweetness of him.
With life, where I'm at, my heart , and all of the above,I am in love.
I hope you are too, because wherever you are and whoever you are, know that you can be sensual, open and happy whether you're married , single , or just plain..."its complicated" lol Love yourself and have a wonderful holiday
xo, lalarose
reply
- Feature
- Like
Forgot to add that my wish this holiday and every day is that for everyone to have what they need in life.
reply
Why I'm grateful for what I have.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm grateful for what I have.
I have a place to live, enough to eat, decent health, and access to health care. All of this makes me a pretty lucky woman, but I have even more than that. I have a wonderful husband who loves me. I have family and friends. I have three cats. I have the luxury to improve myself and work toward self-actualization. I am truly grateful for my life as it is.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm not putting up with no more BS from my 15 and 21 year old starting immediately. They are relentless.
reply
Why I'm...an optimistic realist.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm...an optimistic realist.
My parents are big cynics, and as far back as I can remember being a kid, they attract nothing but bad karma. They have an unbreakable outlook that there is nothing but evil in people and the world, despite all the great experiences (family trips) and nice acquaintances we've met. Because of their views, I've seen how secluded they are with their misery and waiting for the world to do something wrong to them. Cynics never enjoy themselves or their experiences; they revel and delight that when they leave the house to run errands or eat out for dinner, they are satisfied when they are met with trouble because they are always hunting for it. I've also seen the downfalls of being too optimistic. I have friends that are so hope struck that they are blinded to see when anything truly bad happens to them or in the world. My optimistic-realistic view on the world lets me be aware of the bad as well as the good. With all the negativity that sprouts in the news, online, on tv, etc., with all the discontented people I meet or experiences that aren't always inherently good, my optimism combats any feelings that the world is out to get me. Realism lets me accept what is wrong with the world while optimism lets me see the grace and beauty in others that helps me believe that the world is a good place.
reply
Why I'm single.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm single.
The easiest way for me to describe it would be a HST quote.
“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. Some kind of high powered mutant never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”
reply
Why i'm... a little lost.
- Feature
- Like
Why i'm... a little lost.
Just when I think that I have everything in my life going in somewhat of a steady, self-centered order I am brought back down to reality. There are two events that have recently humbled me and made me feel a little more compassionate about other people and about the direction my life is going.
I'm very contemplative lately and I think ill be making some changes in my thoughts and beliefs.
reply
Why I'm a figment.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a figment.
because I feel like i was created in the imagination of some young kid eating count chocula cereal and watching saturday morning cartoons in the early 80's.
also, i relate to humans but i don't feel completely human. i'm not a cyborg though...so don't worry about that.
reply
Why I'm a little let down.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm a little let down.
I can usually expect a "Christmas Spirit" to come over me each year.
This year it did not come and Christmas day passed.
I don't know if I will ever get that holiday feeling back.
Oh well.
reply
Why I'm tired.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm tired.
Christmas started at 5am
Christmas ended around 1am the next morning
Today started 45mins ago because of my cat.
reply
Why I'm simply happy.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm simply happy.
I love christmas. I adore the traditions, the family togetherness, and the perception young ones have of this time of year. I tried it all this year... hanging the lights, drinking eggnog, listening to Bing Crosby croon the best of the holiday songs, however, I had lost some of my gusto for the season because of the past few years. This year my family completely restored my faith in my the Holiday season. It was simply a time of thoughtfulness, bonding, and reflection of why we love each other. My siblings, who I could not make it home to see in IL from CA, had a get together on Thursday and skyped with me for much of the time they were there. Although I was 2000 miles away, I had oddly never felt closer to all of them at the same time. It was an experience I will hold with me forever, and I do not want to attempt to detail the whole thing, as my words would not do justice to what I actually felt.
I live in CA with my cousin (with his wife and their 4 year old), and on Christmas morning this year, I was humbled by just observing the 3 of them enjoy the day together. The 4 year old opening presents, in awe of the events she perceived to happen while she was sleeping, the parents watching with no chance of getting rid of the ear to ear smile on their faces, and me working the video camera to save this memory for them (and honored to do so). I had no expectations of receiving gifts from them, as them letting me live with them for nearly a year now is enough of a gift. But they still got me something, a very good something. It was not the actual gift(s) that I was most thankful for, but the thoughtfulness and inclusion to their family. The gifts simply reflected the familiarity they have with me.
As the day was winding down, and they were all in bed already, I found myself sitting alone and reflecting on the day and weeks events. The only feeling I had was happiness. No other deep or profound explanation or insight to it. Happiness.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm still happy this year...This were going well this year, then slowly started to go iffy. However, I am still lucky and I promise myself to be more self aware and focus on myself next year.
reply
Why I'm... going to be much earlier then usual on this, December 25th, 2010 Christmas night.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm... going to be much earlier then usual on this, December 25th, 2010 Christmas night.
I work tomorrow. Boxing Day. In a mall. In a very small Starbucks with high customer volume. Good thing I'm off at 1pm :D
reply
Why I'm warm and fuzzy.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm warm and fuzzy.
One part egg nog.
Two parts rum.
Topped with a little family much like a fruit cake. (sweet with some nuts)
and there you have it.
reply
Why I'm...a cynical romantic.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm...a cynical romantic.
I am a contradiction, but that is okay with me. I could say that I am a romantic at heart, but I am too realistic for that. I believe in true love and love at first sight, but just not for me.
That is what I am working on. Maybe a little more self confidence will be able to turn me into a true romantic. This holiday season though I am going to focus on enjoying my family and leave my self improvement for a New Year's resolution.
reply
- Feature
- Like
Hope is the character Claire in the movie "Scrooge" with Bill Murray "you can change" and thinking Bah Humbug! is the learning curve.
reply
Why I'm not at church with my family.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm not at church with my family.
Well to be fair my dad decided to play gold today. My brother's fiancée couldn't be bothered. My mum only goes because she has to - or else she's not "christian" enough (?). My sister goes to please my mum; and her fiancée goes to look good to my parents. I went Christmas eve and Christmas day - restricting sleep at both ends (late Christmas eve, early Christmas morning)... Too tired. It's not like you /have/ to go, it's just silliness - and my parents' church is boring...
reply
Why I'm OKAY with working on Christmas.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm OKAY with working on Christmas.
Beloved family and family-friends, you are spoiled with a good-life. You have running water, warm beds and expensive gifts that you may casually cast aside while mentioning "I wanted the red I-pod" or "this is Couture-Couture, not Juicy Couture!!!" and dismiss your goodness to pout. While I love; your company, the home-videos, the swedish meatballs and the day of togetherness, there is an ugliness that lingers. The loss of appreciation for the simple things and lack of gratitude for what we do have- ruins it for me. I'd rather be at work, being missed, mostly in hopes that someday- when we all do get together, than can be enough and valued.
reply
Why I'm here by myself during the holidays.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm here by myself during the holidays.
I did celebrate w/ friends for a holiday lunch. But a couple of weeks ago I went back home for an early Christmas/belated Thanksgiving celebration which meant a lot to me. I love seeing my family and my friends. They always have been dear to me.
reply
Why I am not in the Christmas spirit.
- Feature
- Like
Why I am not in the Christmas spirit.
I do not possess the meaning of Christmas. Not that I don't understand it; I just don't possess it. The love from family and friends, the mistletoe romance, the anticipation of presents; it all skipped over me this year. The present part my be superficial, but the rest is reasonable considering I have friends, a boyfriend, and family.
Instead of relishing in what I have, I feel depressed, unloved, and like everything is slowly falling away from me. I would fake the feeling for someone I care for, but no one cares whether or not this is "the most wonderful time of the year" for me or not.
I'm sorry if it is a bit melancholy, but this is why I'm not in the Christmas Spirit.
reply
Why I'm Awesome.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Awesome.
This is the first thing that came to my mind when I first looked at the question which is a HUGE step in my search for self esteem/happiness/etc. I'm finally seeing that I DO have redeeming qualities and a lot to offer the world. Even if it's a little bit at a time. I hope this response doesn't come off as conceded. I see it as coming off as confident...finally.
reply
Why I am an omiscient, omnipotent, imaginary being...oh wait I'm not because that's about as silly of a belief as believing that a fat man can ride a sleigh, led by reindeer all around to every house in the world in one night. Seems silly to think that we believed that as children, doesn't it? That's how I feel about God, Christ, and religion.
- Feature
- Like
Why I am an omiscient, omnipotent, imaginary being...oh wait I'm not because that's about as silly of a belief as believing that a fat man can ride a sleigh, led by reindeer all around to every house in the world in one night. Seems silly to think that we believed that as children, doesn't it? That's how I feel about God, Christ, and religion.
Really that's why I'm an atheist...
reply
Why i'm genuinly happy?
- Feature
- Like
Why i'm genuinly happy?
As i sit and write this i'm watching my family and friends just enjoy each other. The laughs, the ongoing conversation of "remember the time.." i guess you can say its easy to be intruiged. i might not be saying anything to anyone right now but if i had to chose to say something in one word it'd be, Thanks.
reply
Why I'm Super Pissed:
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm Super Pissed:
In the vein of Ricky Gervais' message, I really, extremely dislike people shoving their beliefs down my throat. I have had this happen thousands of times in my short life, and at only 13 years of age I renounced all religion out of frustration with bossy people, declaring myself an Agnostic rather than an Atheist (because atheists can also be jerks).
There's nothing wrong with spirituality (different than religion) as long as you can justify it for yourself. Just not for everyone else; not only is that rude, that makes you look like an a*s because you're assuming that everyone else besides you is too stupid to make their own decisions about life and death. Is that any way to treat someone, even if you mean well? I think not. In some extreme case where someone literally does not have the cognitive ability to make life choices, sure, you'd make the decision to put them in a nursing home. But to assume that someone *needs* your help to be led to God? Give me a break.
Now, I don't feel bitterly about all religions. Personally, I think some religions are fantastic and it makes me very happy to meet people who practice them or know a lot about them. I LOVE Wiccans and Buddhists, they are some of the coolest people on the planet. I love the cultures of Tibet and India. I think anything Celtic is absolutely fascinating; Norse and Greek mythology are some of my favorite things. I love Christians who can sit and have a two-sided debate with someone who blatantly does not respect their faith, and can walk away from that discussion without having had a fit (I have met only several people who were this way, although I know that many more exist - so thank you, if that's you).
HOWEVER. Regardless of what you believe, or whose religion you think is "right," the fact remains that almost every single one has a holiday centered around winter. Winter is just an all around S****y time of year; people need to get together and be happy and celebrate SOMETHING, just to keep sane until spring comes back around. Even if that wasn't the case, dozens of religions had holidays like Yule before Jesus was even a thought. And for all of the people who think that America is a "Christian country" - fact check, it isn't and never was. Remember how one of the founding principles of this country was "freedom of religion"?
Look, again, I'm not saying I have issues with people celebrating Christmas with their families. It's wonderful, if you celebrate this crap, go be with people you love because I seriously wouldn't have it any other way for myself. Being happy is something that everyone is entitled to. *BUT* again I say, not EVERYONE celebrates Christmas! So why the HELL are all of the grocery stores closed ON NO DAY OTHER THAN THIS DAY? I can bet you anything that NOT 100% of those employees are Christians.
Sure, people would use Christmas as an excuse not to work, but I would work on Christmas if given the option, so who is to say that there wouldn't be others? Besides, unless we're talking about small business that are specifically oriented towards a particular group or run by a religious family, it's not like stores close down on any other holiday (new years, maybe. MAYBE). By this logic, chain stores should be closed on EVERY holiday. You can't just assume that every customer and every employee you have is too busy spending time with their families to need groceries. I'm sorry, but sometimes food just doesn't work out the way you planned and sh*t goes down and you need some mac and cheese, stat.
I think that this is rude and, frankly, kind of forcing Christian holidays down non-Christian throats. I am stuck in a hotel *not visiting my family,* without food, on a trip I did not choose to make, but was forced into by obligation "because it's Christmas."
So, yeah. I hate Christmas because I'm hungry and cranky.
reply
Why I'm happy, by joecounsel.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm happy, by joecounsel.
I'm happy because there are signs that the world is coming together, even if there are hiccups along the way. I'm happy because human equality is growing stronger, both in this country and around the world. When I was young, people of certain races couldn't go just anywhere they wanted.
I'm happy because today, I can chat with people from every corner of the world, just by turning on a computing device. When I was young, ignorance of other peoples was the norm. I'm happy because there's a new dawn coming and I can see the pre-dawn glimmer.
Merry Christmas to those of you to whom such things matter. Have a happy day, whatever it is to you.
reply
Why I'm feeling nauseous, achey and nervous.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm feeling nauseous, achey and nervous.
I like you, a lot. I've never had such an intense, awesome and instant connection with someone and I wasn't even nervous or shy around you. It was like the feeling of home that you lose when you're a kid. When you kissed me, I trembled for 2 hours. Then you withdrew and told me you weren't ready for something so serious even though you wanted it and I haven't known what to do since. Today, however, today is Christmas and you're by yourself and I'm doing something about it; I'm coming, with presents and cookies and a tree.
And I hope it's okay.
Kris Kringle, leave me some Christmas magic, please.
reply
Why I'm working so hard to NOT live my life in comparison to others.
- Feature
- Like
Why I'm working so hard to NOT live my life in comparison to others.
I spent a lot of time (as the youngest in my family) being compared to my sisters, and not measuring up.... what I realized is that I can't compare myself, and they shouldn't compare me, since they have no idea what my journey is about, and when you compare yourself, you will often invent fault that doesn't exist.... Also, sometimes you're the best, sometimes you're the worst, but mostly you are somewhere in between, and that is cool. You're only..... you. And I wouldn't trade my life, my love, my story, for anything out there anyway.
Merry Christmas!
reply
Why i'm trying to be a mass not an elite.
- Feature
- Like
Why i'm trying to be a mass not an elite.
Sometimes, i'm such a loser. Doing nothing never trying to understand anything and
so pathetically trying to be loved by someone so painfully. And further, absorbing
everything that media told me. Anyway but i love the life of mass. And that's the reason why i'm trying to be a mass. Get a great smart mass life which can make us mad by political issues and politician's stupid bills and boozing night and love and following painful days and struggle to unfair social diseases. If we are an elite who decide their frame, it's impossible. But it's possible cuz we are a mass. it's all lovely. lovely mass.
reply
Why I'm an American
- Feature
- Like
